I’m experiencing horrible feelings right now and this is my venting fanfiction. It’s probably shitty, but I need this right now. You can reblog it.

My current feelings are anxiety and horrible sadness, depression.

This fanfic is part of my AU with OCs [Marie/ Berlin] [Maximilian/Regensburg] 

“Hell sends its best regards”

Marie looked around. Saw the remains of her city, Berlin. Saw the people. The soldiers. The citizens. It was horrible to see her people in such pain. But somehow, they deserved it. What was that? What was that little voice shouting it? They deserve it, Marie, they deserve every horrible thing happening. Don’t you remember what was done in here? Now, it’s payback time! The girl looked up and saw the grey-painted sky, cloudy and just as hopeless as she was. 
Her fiancé had gone mad, her sisters were right, the idea back then, to love him, had gone wrong. The perfect idyll, the fairytale changed into a nightmare, a dystopic horror land. And she escaped. But now, there was another nightmare taking her dreams, crushing them. 
It was horrible. 

knock knock who’s there?

right, all your failures

a little girl, 

parents loved her

a bright mind

always exploring 

not standing still

always kind

never ignoring

and oh, so strong-willed

a young woman

boys liked her

but she was fed up

playing Rosalie

simply took the s out of she

cut hair short

sports-bra-layers

then the words

a young man

standing in front of her parents

who are angry

‘ this is not who you are’

they scream

they don’t know the harm

they’re doing 

he falls into a stream

a young man

laughed and ridiculed

his parents don’t want him to be

granny calls him “freak abomination”

and at school, another confrontation

a friend says ‘it’s fine, i’m here’

but there are some, who overhear

and come out for him

a young man

no longer wanting

to live

in a shithole

tries to kill 

himself with a blade

but some girl

screams

no.

she smiles at him.

he stares at her

“my name is Serena”

in his eyes, despair

“Ross” he sobs

“now, come on, ross!

I will get you

out of here”

silent screams at night

bringing dreams of fright

killing your sanity step by step

take the knife, don’t fret

and slash

slash 

gush

….until goodbye